The Art of Surrender

What’s present in my Journey?  Extreme Gratitude, for I am on the deepest journey of self-love ever and the deepest journey of trust and surrender.  Let me tell you, the results of walking the process, with no choice but to be present in the moment, cannot be described as anything but the works of God.  No other way to explain it. 

A transformational coach, in the midst of the deepest personal transformation yet.  I will be growing until the day this incarnation is complete, that I know.  What I didn’t know, or expect, was just how amazing life could get, peeling back those deepest layers of the onion, the deepest layers of fear and self-limiting beliefs, the deepest layers of ultimate trust in God and the Divine.

Left in a place that I had no option but to surrender and trust that I am being led by God, I am overcoming fear and simply following God’s will.  One thing I know about myself, which is currently becoming an old story, is that, as a Capricorn, a human design Projector, and a strong masculine, I have been very stubborn, trying to micro-manage and control all aspects of my life.  If I desired something, I made it happen, in most cases leading to less than desirable circumstances. It must be frustrating to be my guardian Angels. I can hear them say, “do you really need more confirmation,” as I ask for their assistance in overcoming the fear of experiencing new experiences.  One thing for sure though, no matter how stubborn I have been, God ALWAYS gives me another chance, never gives up on me, and provides me opportunity after opportunity to make better choices, with LOVE, grace, compassion, empathy and acceptance.  It took pretty dire circumstances to get to this place of surrender, but I am here.

In this place of having no option but to surrender, trust and follow God’s will, I was called to uproot and travel to a new place, a new physical location, not even knowing what the immediate future had in store for me and leaving behind attachments to everything that had been my reality for years.  Despite all the events that had transpired leading up to this point, and all the synchonicitites and Divine support that were ever present, I was fearful.  Just hours before I was to depart, truck packed up and ready, fear overcame me.  I took it to prayer and asked God, once again, to give me sign that I was making the right decision and before I could even complete the ask, an undeniable sign presented through multiple synchronicities being shown to me in a matter of 30 seconds.  I said, “okay God, thank you, I am going.”  Fear quelled, I departed, but at the same time, I arrived. 

Within 24 hours of arriving at my destination, I attended an event, a Hapé and Cacao ceremony with a drum circle, music, singing and dancing around a Sacred Fire.  The event had crossed my social media feed a week prior to departing to my new destination and I was guided to sign up, not even knowing for certain the journey was happening.  The event had crossed my feed because I was friends, in the digital realm, with one person that was going, but I had not ever interacted with this person so I knew no one there.  Instantly, upon arrival to the event, the previous statement proved to be false, I knew everyone there, as if I had known them forever.  I was welcomed with open arms and open hearts.  Never in my life have I ever felt so instantly seen, welcomed and accepted, simply for showing up me.

The connections made that night, because I followed God’s will, overcame fear, released attachments, and allowed myself to be led, rather than attempting to lead myself, have unlocked opportunity after opportunity.  With no choice but to live each day in the moment, I follow my guidance and take the aligned action that presented the day before, each time overcoming fear and disbelief, simply allowing the journey to unfold knowing that God’s got the wheel and this is all happening FOR me.  Each day the fear shrinks, the trust grows, and because I feel ultimate safety, my self-embodiment strengthens.

It's been 2 weeks and 2 days since this journey of new experiences began but it feels like many many many lifetimes, as with each new experience, or even multiple times within a single experience, a new me is birthed on the road to ultimately embodying who I am and what I came here to do.

Alignments and opportunities falling in my lap, most of them free to me, miraculously provided FOR me by simply being me, in absolutely inexplicable ways.  I am humbled but grateful, because I know I am worthy to receive these blessings, and I know why I am receiving them.  

The Cheetah power animal presented to me that first night I attended the event in this new location and I completely understand why, it's all coming in hot and fast, like the Cheetah, and I am ever so Grateful.

I don’t know what tomorrow has in store for me, or even later today for that matter, but for the first time in my life, I am absolutely okay with it.

 Get ready world, Jeffrey is coming to the main stage.