Astral Rebirth (part 2)

In part one, I shared the experience in meditation of rebirth, a do over of my physical birth and incarceration into this life, the natural way rather than by C-section, and what I was robbed of in the way I entered this world.  

The second part of my experience in meditation that day has to do with the days following birth.

I was born jaundice and spent three days in ICU because of this.  My Mother, whose birthday is just three days after mine, has always told the story of how I, her bouncing baby boy, was the greatest birthday gift she had ever been given because she didn’t even get to meet me until then.  After being born jaundice, cesarian section, I was rushed off and again robbed of a very essential element of child birth, that initial connection with my Mother and Father.  I spent three days, alone, in a plastic box, monitored by machines, and lacking the ever so essential element of connection.

In meditation, I experienced the embodiment of that experience as newly born, infant me, alone, scared, in a new place.  So, I again asked what I was robbed of in that experience and it was that connection to my Mother and Father in this physical realm, but also extreme amnesia of my connection to our Divine Mother and Father, which has taken me 40 something years to remember.

Again, in Parts Work Fashion, I asked what was needed to be experienced in order to ultimately clear the energy of this experience, but this time, I wasn’t working with the Protector, I was working with the Exile himself, newborn infant me.  The answer I got was again, a do-over of the experience, the right way.  I totally agreed and dove back into that deeper state of meditation and embodied newly born me, having just been reborn, the natural way. 

After coming out of the birth canal, being received by the doctor’s hands, seeing light, taking my first breath, clearing out my lungs of fluid and belting out my first cry, I was laid on my Mother’s bare chest, feeling her warmth and hearing her heartbeat, feeling safe, comforted, connected and LOVED, as I did in the womb.  I was having this experience in the Astral realm but the sensations I was feeling in my physical, adult body in this realm was just like the experience I had in the Ayahuasca journey where I was being held by Pachamama, our Divine Mother.  I experienced a deeper layer of the onion in connection to Mother.

After being in this space for a moment, I, as infant me, was passed to my Father, who was standing over my mother and I the whole time. I was held, also against his bare chest as he stood over my mother, feeling so safe in his arms, against his chest, in his masculine presence, smelling what he smelled like and experiencing Father’s LOVE.  Again, experiencing the feeling I had in my physical body that I had experienced on a different night of a weekend Aya retreat, a deeper layer of the onion to the connection to Father.

At the conclusion of this experience, I asked the Exile, the infant version of me, where he wanted to go to release anything that had been a block in connecting to Mother and Father energy.  I was born in a hospital that was walking distance from the beach in the Los Angeles area, so his answer was for me, adult me, to walk him, infant me, down to the beach so he could release the energy into the water, into the Pacific Ocean.  I agreed and off we went, in the astral realm, to the beach.  Experiencing this as infant me, adult me carried him down to the water and dunked me underwater.  I felt as if I was once again in the womb, in the safety of the waters, in the safety Mother’s LOVE, but was seeing light and the blue color of the water as I was in the ocean, and when I was brought up out of the water, I was held up in the air.  It was no longer adult me holding me, it was Jesus.

When I came out of this meditation experience, I was trying to wrap my mind around what had just happened.  Did I just get baptized by Jesus himself?  Jesus answered with “yes, my Brother, you did.”  The relationship I have with Jesus is that of a Brother, an equally Divine being, a Son of God, from whom I learn, am guided by, and strive to walk like in everything I do, but also, as the Divine Father energy.  The experiences I had, from birth, that made me forget my connection to Mother and Father, were FOR me.  The process of remembering that has taken 40 something years of experiences, were for the advancement of my soul.

We never are separate from the Mother and Father Energies.  We are never separate from God.  The experiences we have in life are not to create separation, they are to strengthen the connection.  When the experiences of life give me temporary amnesia, I feel it in my body as imbalance, and all I have to do is use the tools that Ive been taught to regulate my nervous system, restore the balance, and re-establish the connection.  Nervous system regulation is where it’s at.